Friday, May 12, 2006
♥ 8:55 PM
had fish and co for dinner. good food la! there was a live band there and the music was great. it was the highlight of my dinner after a conversation over dinner that was totally rubbish!
it was so irritating la! i thot we were going to be able to have a happy night with a good dinner but she just had to bring it up and spoil my evening la! i just got so pissed when she said his name! FREAK LA! like wth la! irritating ass! i just wanted to forget all the stuff and have a nice evening but i guess that not gonna be happening so soon.
i use to cry in the shower cos that's where no one will know and i can let it all out. and i know thats dumb!haha! but now it just doesnt work anymore! got to find another way!
i feel like locking myself in the room and blasting the music but thats not gonna happen!
i just hate it when i have to hide my actual feelings especially from my family and have to look happy and smiling and laughing when im not cos it SUCKS! SO BAD! i hate it mann! shit la!
